hello...is anyone out there?
are you listening/logged in/following/paying attention/connected?
can you hear me now?
obedience...this is what it looks like...i think.
i have felt impressed/called/led/asked...to continue writing.
so officially...I have a blog in which to obey/comply/jump off the proverbial cliff
i have had so many of you comment on my writings through my cancer badventure that i have felt encouraged to continue. if you aren't caught up on my journey to date check out my caring bridge site at http://www.caringbridge.org/visit/lauracaldwell
when people began to actually ask me to write, i began to wonder how that would look.
more importantly, there has been a "holy nudge" in my heart also...that i have almost utterly ignored and rationalized away:
1. when would i do that exactly
2. i can't seem to write unless i am in crisis
3. i don't have anything to say that hasn't already been put pen to paper or finger to touch screen
4. i am just a girl that is living through and with a disease...and trying to come out of it alive. lots of people do that...
5. and on and on...lots of excuses in a day and lots of things to distract me from doing what i feel i am "supposed" to be doing (cleaning toilets comes to mind, or absolutely anything other than writing)
and the voices in my head tell me that i can't (skill, time, voice, material etc, etc), that no one will read it, that it doesn't matter anyway. when the voices get tired and quiet enough i just keep hearing..."just do it...I will take care of the rest"
and that is what got me to this place today...along with one other thing.
when the love of this one thing, writing, became greater than my fear of it and greater than some of the other things i am giving my attention to, i knew that it was time. it could not be ignored any longer.
so whether you are tuning in or not, like it or not, inspired by it or not, at least i am being obedient and that is all that matters.
